Sorry to everyone else watching this little Drama who has NOTHING to do with it. This is for Kushan. I tried to send it via Dee, but he said if I wanted to talk to him I had to do it directly. HYPOCRITE that he is, as he hasn't tried to talk to me directly over anything about this, except for spit absurd idiotic comments from afar via LJ. Anyway, I asked Dee's advice, and she said she wasn't sure if he'd actually read an email I sent him, so she suggested I did this.

This is the note, this is why Im not giving you any money except for a token £9, and that is only on the basis you're going to cooperate. If you do not cooperate now, Mr Donaghy, then the offer is withdrawn, no more silly and illogical counter proposals designed to make you feel like you've somehow got "one over" on Ben will be listened to, and further pursuit of me or Ben on this matter WILL end in us talking to the police on grounds of harrasment. I have a copy of this note saved and dated as evidence. I think you'll find as Ben was the legal contract holder, and as you have paid NO MONEY to us (only Dee has, and apparently you haven't paid her anyway, and she certainly just wants this to go away) you have no legal foot to stand on.

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23-01-08

Dear Kushan,

This is just a quick note explaining why me and Ben stand where we do on the issue of the Virgin Media Bill.

From what I gather since the December bill wasn't paid by us and the service was cut off in January, you want money taken for those bills back. I've offered you £9 and you aren't happy with it, but £9 is my offer, and you can either say yes ok now, and have £9 delivered to you via Dee next time I see her, or you can kick up a fuss again and not receive the £9.

If this seems like a hard deal, then just think about the reasons behind the £9...I suggest you read carefully because everything is explained in great detail...

1) You weren't living at 27 Wellington Avenue in December, your contract didn't begin until January, and as such you have no claim to the bill money. As for Dee and Blue, the money was taken, yes, but due to unforseen circumstances, for which Dee even lent us money to get us through, we were unable to pay for the bill in December. Ben and I had to fork out half of the bill for our share, you understand, and between us didn't have it unless we didn't want to eat. Reasons for that aside, however, the service was not cut off, and thus Dee and Blue got what they paid for. A late fee was incurred, but Ben and myself have taken no money from Dee or Blue or even yourself for this. The December bill plus late fee is included in the final invoice which Virgin Media are sending to Ben at our flat, and as such, the December bill is still being paid by ourselves, this weekend most likely, after it has arrived in the post at our flat, and will be paid along with the small severence charge of about £30-£40, and the bill for January.

2)With the cancellation we have to pay for January, as previously stated. We, however, have not been tenants of Wellington Avenue since December, and as such we are owed money for use of the service. Furthermore, you claim we should pay more as we stayed there for a week. This is not true, we arrived at Wellington Avenue on the 3rd of the month and left on the 5th, that's 2 days. Now, you are absoloutley right in saying that you didn't get the whole months use, however, Dee has indeed had use from the very beginning of the month. Remember that you are not the only user of the service. I have very roughly calculated then that for the 9 days that the house doesn't get Virgin, you should get £9 back. This is fair in my eyes, but there is no way that we are going to pay out the entirety of the January bill, or even half of it, from our own pocket, when for 20 days we weren't there and you were happily using it.


Many Thanks,

Bex

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Well as you can now tell we have the internet after having waited around 3 weeks. All our bills are sorted, and bills from 27 are cut off from our name which is a lovely big heap of responsibility taken off our shoulders and put firmly on the shoulders of the people with whom the responsibility lies. Furniture is coming into the flat bit by bit, and I can't tell you how much I'm looking forward to doing the laundry properly AND being dried out nicely and being able to save money by buying in food to store in a fridge.

The area is not too bad. During the day it's lovely, though it can get a little dodgey at night. We have also discovered we have a little friend sharing our flat. His name is Friedrick von Cheddarburg and soon he will find himself eating his last chocolate drop.

Work is work. It pays the bills though it's not exactly great. I've sent off for four new jobs and have since spotted a couple more I'm gonna call up for.

I think that's about it as far as news goes. I shall now do a meme as stolen from Carmy...

JUST TWO THINGS...


Two names you go by:

1. Bex

2. Beka


Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:

1. An AICR T-shirt

2. Pink socks!


Two pictures on your wall at home:

1. St Anne Icon thingy

2. Sketch of Bens old doggy Roc


Two of Your Favourite things to do:

1. Have sex

2. Masturbate


Two Things You Want Very Badly At The Moment:

1. A new job

2. A fridge!


Two pets you had/have:

1. Rocky the budgie

2. Halifax the Hamster


Two things you need at the store:

1. Loo roll

2. Food for tonight


Two things you wanted for Christmas:

1. Rest

2. Peace and quiet


Two people who will fill this out and send it back.

1. Laila maybe

2. No one else seems to be interested in doing memes. I'm just easily distracted

Two things you did last night:

1. Had sex

2. Chased Friedrick von Cheddarburg with a walking stick


Two Things you ate yesterday:

1. An apple

2. A burger


Two people you last talked to:

1. Ben

2. Mum


Two things you are going to do tomorrow:

1. Bum around online

2. Pay off a bill


Two longest car rides:

1. Drive down to Alicante in Spain

2. Drive down to Cornwall on various occasions

Two Favourite Holidays:

1. Bournemouth

2. Cornwall


Two favourite beverages:

1. Hot chocolate

2. Milky tea

First off...yay Im a birdie! I love birdies!

Link: The Golden Compass Daemon Test written by wolfcaroling on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test View My Profile(wolfcaroling)

Secondly...I'm moving out of Wellington Avenue at half 9 tomorrow morning. It's now half 11 at night, and I haven't even STARTED packing. That said, I'm chucking a load of stuff out rather than keeping it, and if I recall correctly I was in the same situation when I moved out of GC, sooooo...I'm not stressing too much yet. Heh. Obviously I won't have the net for a bit, so I shall be absent, but don't worry too much, I'll probably have it by next friday, within a fortnight at most at any rate.

Catch y'all later mo-fo's

Bex
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Finally got some good news today. The landlords rep called and said yes we have the flat! Woo! He also said we should take £520 to him on Friday and we'll fill in the paperwork and get the keys. Not so woo...where to get £520 by Friday? One quick call to dad and woo! The money is sent to me. Not so woo is that he wants to come down to move our stuff over on Saturday...oh dears. That leaves Friday for packing stuff. Heh ^_^;; We're gonna be a bit bare for a while...I must ask dad to bring an airbed with him so we're not sleeping on the floor until the proper bed gets delivered, and there will be no sofa for a while, but we can just sit around on the floor and watch TV I suppose ^_^;;. A trip to ASDA shall be had to pick up a George Forman grill or something so that we can at least have a warm meat sandwich or the such to eat whilst waiting upon an oven. Hopefully they may also have a flat pack computer desk...

So lots of things to be getting busy with when me and Ben arrive at the pool.

Another not so woot thing that happened today was that train tickets were missing from the post. However, arrangements have been made to pick some up from the station if they should fail to appear tomorrow.

Went to see I Am Legend today. OMG YOU MUST ALL GO AND SEE IT! I heard it had some pretty bad reviews, but if you're into post apocalyptic zombie films, I'd say screw the reviews, go see it! Not as gory and graphic as 28 days, but still just as scary, and just the right length too.

Now for a meme

1. Will you be looking for a new job?
Yes. Home Fundraising is well paying enough and I like the people enough, and speaking to people on a door is easy enough, except for the fact that I have a moral objection to it. I didn't at first...but I'm just too empathetic. I know how pissed off with fundraisers I get, especially when they won't take no for an answer, and when I hear people dragging themselves out of their living room to answer the door I feel so guilty. Plus, I'm no good with the walking around ^_^;;. Thus a new job I shall find asap, and I'm just glad I can pay the bills until I find it!

2. Will you be looking for a new relationship?
...dude, I'm in the middle of planning my wedding...

3. Will you be looking for sex?
Yes. I shall be looking for Ben sex. :D

4. What will you do different in '08?
Well it will be my first full year out of full time education. Can't promise I won't be a student at some point as many of the jobs I have my eye on will require me to get qualifications on the job, but I will be first and foremost a working girl. It will also be my first year not living in someone elses house, or a house shared with mates, will just be my private sex parlour and my live in slave....

5. New Years Resolution?
* Loose at least 2 stone so I can be a little more slimline and healthy for my wedding
* Get a job that can spurn on a career

6. What will you not be doing in '08?
Taking shit from anyone, that is if co workers start looking like they may be of the sarah sort, don't get involved!

7. Any trips planned?
Not this year, other than an Xmas trip home

8. Wedding plans?
The wedding plans are to plan the wedding...the wedding is in 2009 so...

9. Major thing on your calendar?
The most major thing is moving flat and buying shit for it. Oh the debt...

10. What can’t you wait for?
To pick out my wedding dress ^_^ and to get all the wedding stuff booked.

11. What would you like to see happen differently?
Nothing much. Maybe pay more visits to friends houses. Living with friends kinda makes visiting either obsolete or a chore.

12. What about yourself will you be changing?
Weight and job, fingers crossed

13. What happened in ‘07 that you didn’t think would ever happen?
Quitting Uni, getting engaged with a big party to accompany it

14. Will you be nicer to the people you care about?
Aren't I already? Except for womenly monthly mood swings they don't count ^_^;;

15. Will you dress differently in '08 than you did in '07?
Only if the new job requires a uniform!

16. Will you start or quit drinking?
Hahaha you wish!

17. Will you better your relationship with your family?
It's a s good as it's going to get - we all love each other until I have to stay with them, then we all get in each others faces lol

18. Will you do Volunteer work?
Probably not

20. Do you expect '08 to be a good year for you?
If things stay as good as they are now, then yes.

21. How much did you change from this time last year til now?
I've become less of a party animal.

22. Do you plan on having a child?
Not this year, but next year or the year after, yes.

23. Will you still be friends with the same people you are friends with now?
Probably lol they aint going anywhere as far as I know!

24. Major lifestyle changes?
Technically I am right now living with house mates, one of which I happen to be engaged to, but this Saturday I shall officially be living as one half of a cohabiting couple, that's gonna be a huge change! Also, with the job etc. Hopefully I'll kick the bad eating habits and get a good healthy eating regime along with a healthy exercise regime (Bens folks are bringing up their now disused exercise bike, woot, DVD and a workout time!)

25. Will you be moving?
Yes. In 3 days time.

26. What will you make sure doesn’t happen in 08 that happened in 07?
I will definitley make sure I'm not quitting Uni again ;)

Bex
xxx

Well, first up, had a smashing Xmas. Got some presents in the form of new clothes (2 new coats, a new night dress, a t-shirt, a shirty shirt, a jumper, 2 skirts and a pair of new shoes) chocolates, a Zombie survival guide (in the form of a desktop calendar, care of Nathaniel, he sure knows what my priorities are - Zombie attacks may be happening as we speak!), various toiletries, a new handbag (real leather so it wont be falling to pieces in the near future hopefully!) a £60 ASDA gift voucher (considering me and Ben will be going a week without pay due to holidays, this will be coming in useful, so don't knock it, it means we can eat upon returning to Liverpool!) a roll of toilet paper with puzzles printed on it (my Godmother has such a way with gifts) a beautiful necklace from my beloved, a set of ten of those metal puzzle things like what Dee brought back from Blackpool that time, a pair of pearl earings (neither know nor care if they're real pearl, they're just very pretty!) a bracelet, and from Toppa I got one of those terribly tacky but eternally entertaining xmas toys that sings and dances lol.

One present I got, however, puzzled me. It was a Mexican Nacho party set from my Uncle, that is, a set with a ceramic bowl in the shape of a sombrero in bright colours (for the nachos) and 2 maching bowls for the dip, a spicy dip and a mild herby dip, along with that they included 2 bags of nachos and a bottle of wine. Take away the nachos and Wine, and the set alone was the biggest gift I recieved and had to be left at home until my folks can being it down to Liverpool. The thing is though, Gran said that my Uncle was on about getting me and Ben one of those George Forman grills for when we move into the flat. Gran had said though that as we were going to Kent first before heading to Liverpool, it probably wouldn't be a good idea and money for the flat would probably be more appreciated. I'm not ungreatful for what they got me instead but I just don't see the logic. You see, the box in which this set comes is actually twice the size of the grill that Stephen has, and as such I can't see how that was any more practical :s Infact, it is probably the least practical option for buying for the flat than the grill or the money. Ah well, such is the brain power of my Uncle, and we have plans to use it at our Housewarming party :D

Speaking of that, Ben has been bugging the landlords agent about the flat as we STILL have no answer from him. He told us today he'd be going back to the office, so Ben called him and apparently nothing had come through. He reckons this, however, is a good thing, as if it were a majorly bad report it would have come through sooner for some reason...ah well. He says it'll probably be the 2nd January when we find out, which is...inconvenient in some ways I suppose. We had wanted to have the tenancy start on the 1st January to make it nice and neat, and my dad has offered to take a day off work to come help us move from Wellington to the new place, but kinda needs advanced warning for that, asap. We had hoped to do the moving the weekend after we got back, but alas, that will be a little difficult now. It also makes it inconveniant in that I don't wanna count all my chickens before they've hatched and I'd rather know sooner than later if they don't want us in the flat. I've not wanted to look for second options in the meantime as money must be exchanged for credit checks and I don't want to waste money on a check if I'm gonna get accepted for this flat anyway, but at least if I knew whether or not we'd been accepted, I could be making arrangements for houseviewings already! Never mind, we had originally said we'd be moving out halfway through January running possibly into early February, so it's still ahead of our original schedule at any rate.

Anyway, I'm tired and am going with Katie to see wedding and bridesmaid dresses tomorrow (yes the planning really has begun now....heh roll on February 2009...so much money needed ^_^;;) and then to a football match (woo for chips and burgers and football!) so I'm now heading off to bed...

Bex
xxx

Hello's all, just getting on for a quick update.

Not really done much since getting here. Took Ben and the kids to the Metrocentre on Friday, and had my hair done yesterday, that's about it.

Speaking of having my hair done, I shall have to try and get a photo of it up here for you all to see while it is still nice and shiney from the hairdressers lol. It is now only just longer than Dee's, chocolate brown, and complete with fringe. It's layered and was flicked out yesterday but suffice to say its all flattened out by now. I did look like some random anime girly.

Have been a little net deprived as our net has been going kerplunk. Dad swore it was Talk Talk, but then decided to test the equipment today...it was an extension cable. Ah well it's always fun to shout at people down the phoneline :D

Speaking of which, I've been getting a million and one phonecalls from Yes Loans UK. Basically I browsed onto their site when I found out about that £900 the greedy Uni wants off me, and found they had a credit score tester, which I did. All of a sudden I'm getting calls from them. But not just one, oh no. I got a phonecall from them about an hour after going onto their site, another one the next day, 2 days after that I get 3 phonecalls (these are all phonecalls I ansswer; I missed a load of them too) and tell them the same thing over and over again; not interested for now thankyou. They called me three times again yesterday, though I ignored the first two (thankfully their number is not with held. Hopefully after all my rejections they'll get the message that no, I don't want a loan and calling me every couple of days is not going to change my mind. In fact, even though I was considering it for January, I now am not, because I don't want all this harrssment. I wanted it originally to pay off my uni debts, but if I am in dire straights come January I'll talk to the bloody bank about it! Maybe you say I should have spoken first...but Bens had nothing but trouble from his bank which made me hesitant, but its probably the best way to do it now if only to piss this stupid loans company off >.<


Anyhow. Had a lazy day today, going to a Christmas Carol service tonight which should be nice. Can't wait for Tuesday...yay for Xmas dinners and puds and pressies ^_^

Bex
xxx

( Before a quiz, I shall have a little whine, about the usual )

Now for something a little more fun to kill time ^_^ Woo for end of the year surveys!

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
Lived completley away from the Heslop family homestead, only having visited Spennymoor briefly for my birthday, and tomorrow for a week for xmas, unlike other years where I've spent the whole summer living at home.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
My resolution was to loose weight and eat more vegetables. HAH! No, I did quite the opposite ^_^;; I may try again this year however. It's a good resolution to have.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes. Unfortunately it was premature and after only a month on this Earth, poor baby Jakey passed away :(

4. Did anyone close to you die?
I guess never having met Jake I can't say I was close to him, but I'm close to his family and it was a very sad time for everyone who knew them :(

5. What countries did you visit?
Scotland and Wales. Lol.

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
A place for me and Ben to be on our own as a couple.

7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
27 - 05 - 07, the day I officially got engaged to Ben

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Finally completing a first year at University, and passing very well. Unfortunately that winning streak didn't last ^_^;;

9. What was your biggest failure?
The failure I made to myself which drove me to leave Uni.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
The usual SAD and the such, but spent a night in hospital due to a severe asthma attack

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Haven't really bought much this year, but I guess my polka dot dress is a fave, even if I do just look like a big doll in it!

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Dad, who whilst still technically supposed to be hospitalized came to Liverpool to celebrate my engagement and got up infront of everyone and gave a little speech. It may not have seemed alot to the bystanders at the party who don't know what he was going through at the time, but that was very difficult for him, as he was very ill at the time. He was a star that weekend :). Also for finding the strength to pull down some personal barriers he's had for years and making amends with myself about deep rooted stuff between us.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
Iris, Sarah and Hannah have been the most appalling to deal with this year, and thats saying something given all the drama that has happened this year!

14. Where did most of your money go?
Rent, bills and food. Too much food.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
The engagement, and moving into a little flat

16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
"Rule the World" by Take That - it's kinda mine and Bens none xmassy song now lol

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? As I don't count depression being it's an illness I'd say my life is generally happier now I've broken free of a few restrictive chains and also found a spirituality that really comforts me.
ii. richer or poorer? Generally the same, though I see less of the money due to regular bills and the such

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
LOSING WEIGHT <<<< Agreed :( <<<<< Agreed also lol. Also I wish I'd saved more money!

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Spending money and dwelling on shit. Im a big dweller.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
With the family up north woo!

22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
No, I was already in love :)

23. How many one-night stands?
None, cause I've been in a long standing relationship

24. What was your favourite TV program?
Doctor Who and Robin Hood!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Iris

26. What was the best book you read?
Errmm...I dont think Ive read any new ones this year. Take that back, I finally finish Empress Orchid lol, thats a damned good book

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
All the stuff played by Jimmy Straightjacket at The Girl Can't Help It!

28. What did you want and get?
Some sort of independance

29. What did you want and not get?
A fixed laptop lol

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
Stardust, no questions asked!

30a. What was your favourite theatrical production of this year?
Flint Street Nativity. I know it was technically the very end of last year, but it's on again this year :p

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I spent it with the family doing the usual - buffet tea at Granny's! I was 20.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
A little more money!

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
"Does this have any stains on it? No? Does it smell? No? Does it fit? Yes? Then I'll wear it!" - I became a little more "mainstream" this year, but it's very comfy, and I mix and match quite a bit to make it my own I suppose.

34. What kept you sane?
Ben and Cipralex lol!

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Guy of Guisbourne! And the guy who plays Voldemort. Voldemort is sexy. Sorry, I have strange kinks.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The demonstrations in Burma, it's about time someone stepped in and helped the people there claim back their democracy, but nnnnooooooooooo they has no ooooiiiillll *roles eyes*

37. Who did you miss?
Everyone at home

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Clem

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007.
People are very selfish, but once you've found those few stars who aren't, hold onto them!

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Hmmmmmm..........

"I never thought it'd feel this good to quit
Failure tastes so sweet
I'm not afraid anymore, forgive me"

Apparently, since I left Uni before December, the Student Loans company withdrew every last drop of support and I now owe the Uni £900 in tuition fees. If nothing is sorted by 14 days, the debt collectors will be on my back.

Fan Fucking Tastic.

Why wasn't I informed of this before I signed the form to withdraw from Uni?

Bex
xxx

I got egged on the way to ASDA last night. The egg was thrown from a car doing 40 at the very least, and hit with such force on my chest that it physically winded me and caused me to jerk in such a fashion that Ben thought I'd been hit with a rock. One good thing from the force of the egg was that it didn't actually break on me, it bounced off and smashed on the pavement, saving me from a gooey mess. Infact I didn't even know it was an egg until Ben pointed out its smashed remains to me.

So whats my point? Well being egged is one of those annoying things we all grow up with these days, especially those of us who spend our teenage years trying to fit in with the "alternative" scene (although, I would point out to those reading who would say "serves you right" that I was wearing "normal" clothes when I was egged, and only go the whole hog if I'm heading out to the Krazyhouse these days. It's just too much effort for me ^_^;; no no, this was simply a random act of stupidity by some drunken Scouse twats.). However, that damned egg hit me with such force that the area which it hit is now too sensitive to touch (even just the surface of the skin, let alone applying any ammount of pressure, though thankfully and somewhat mysteriously it hasn't left a bruise) and I am now having problems lifting my left arm by the shoulder or lifting anything heavy. To add to this I've litterally in the past 5 minutes began to suffer shooting pains from the area running up my neck, and have been having chest pains radiating from the area all day.

I know no serious damage has been done, at worst the bone is bruised, but I'm just so fucking pissed off beyond belief. I probably wouldn't be had the pain gone away by now, more annoyed than anything, but it's getting no better and I just have to think...why? I'm fucking lucky it didn't hit my head. At worst it would have hit me in the temple and I'd probably have been knocked out cold, and at best it would have smashed £180 worth of spectacles, and I'd have been fucked cause I can't see a damn thing without them.

GRRRRR

Anyway. In better news, we're paying the admin fee for the credit check on the flat tomorrow so hopefully we'll be getting a "yes, you may move in" by Tuesday, so yay, flatness rules ^_^

Bex
xxx

Well I've had my first week as a fundraiser. I have o say that on Monday I was ready to throw in the towel already as our team leader was less than helpful. However, I didn't, and I had a better day on Wednesday, and an even better one yesterday, as my body seems to have adjusted to the physical demands alot easier than I thought. I meanm, on Monday I was left behind, shuffling along at snails pace, physically unable to lift my feet by the time I got home. I had to crawl up the stairs to bed. Yesterday, in the same area, same kinda houses, same distance covered etc, my feet didn't even start to ache until 20 minutes or so before we got a taxi back to the train station. Great :D

I did however have a really creepy dream last night. I dreamt I was looking after 3 babies, 2 were princesses (Celine and Elizabeth) and the other was a random baby boy. They weren't sick but for some reason everyone knew they were going to die and it was my job to look after them in their final hours. I laid Celine down into her crib and she died first, then I lay the boy down in a bed and he died, then I lay Elizabeth down on the floor, she started screaming, but I had something else to do so I left her there and left the room. Suddenly the screaming stopped so I went in to see what was happening, and everything in the room was covered in blood and the whole room was filled with helium filled balloons made from the organs and body parts of the dead children. Some wierd man was making the balloons from the babies corpses and I was like...what the fuck man! He told me I was next, so I turned, walked out of the door, and thankfully, woke up.

Freaky or what?

Bex
xxx

I wrote a poem today. Yyyyaaaayyyy for the poems! ^_^

"Fuck off" By Rebecca Heslop

People are going to get sick of me
Talking about you
Complaining about you
But you pop up every time things are going right

So today, take your poems
Take your drugs
Take your "philosophy"
Stick them up your bony ass and leave my boobs alone :D

Yes. Merlin did start talking to me again. He spoke of all the above. Drugs, philosophy, his wonderful poetry, and my boobs.

And yes. I did send him that, live on msn. It's taken me a long time to say it, but I finally did. I shit myself when I pressed the send button to be honest, like leaving an era behind finally but it's done now and I feel much better for it. I have a lot of writer friends, so I'd like to say no, it's not a serious poem in any sense (other than the content, yes, that is very serious), but I thought considering his poetry was all he talked about for years, this was the best way to take the piss out of him and give him a big middle finger. This took all of 1 minute to write, which I think is the time he took over anything he wrote, so it's quite fitting.

Now, I have much more pressing things to do, such as a shopping/wish list for the new flat. Will tell you all about that in the next installment of "The Chronicles of Bex". Infact I may just rename my journal to that right now. Hehehehehehehe :D

Bex
xxx

Stolen from loveliesfamous

Go to the Wikipedia home page and click random article. That is your band's name.
Click random article again; that is your album name.
Click random article 15 more times; those are the tracks on your album.

Band name: Yakovlevsky District
Album: 90 Minutes for Mandela

1. Outer membrane protein W family
2. Mapping cone
3. Hohtenn
4. William Seth Agar
5. Drasnia
6. Progressive Farmers and Household Union of America
7. Kinski Paganini
8. China Youth Corps
9. Yavne
10. McAuley
11. Louisiana State Troopers Association
12. Citizens Communications
13. Stoyan
14. Istituto Mater Boni Consilii
15. Shrine of Our Lady of the Cedars

Well Im still really pissed off with the whole Iris thing. I just wanna scream or something. But that would hurt my vocal chords, so instead of doing that I'm doing this meme instead. Hah.

Meme in question: I've Got The Music In My Pants!
Instructions: Take the first 20 or so songs in your random playlist. Add the phrase "In My Pants" to the end of each title. Comment on anything extra amusing. Post. Steal if you like.

1. Alanis Morissette - One hand in my pocket in my pants (I never put a pocket there!)

2. DJ Sammy - Heaven in my pants (that's what'll happen when Ben gets home tonight :D)

3. Catatonia - Strange glue in my pants (that must be what Ben left there last time...)

4. Tatu - How soon is now in my pants (When you say "now" is that a euphamism?)

5. April Stevens - Teach me Tiger in my pants (Noooooooo, Tiger porn bad!)

6. The Verve - Bittersweet symphony in my pants (Otherwise known as menstruation)

7. Robbie Williams - Let love be your energy in my pants (Do I really need to elaborate on this one?)

8. Wheatus - Teenage Dirtbag in my pants (Nooo, only men are allowed in there!)

9. Police - Every breath you take in my pants (Nothing like a bit of cunnilingus to make you feel better)

10. Rage against the machine - D-Generation X in my pants (All at once? Woot!)

11. Little Richard - Roll over Beethoven in my pants (Oh no, I'm no necrophiliac!)

12. Leaves Eyes - Norweigian lovesong in my pants (Who put that flute down there?)

13. Alanis Morisette - Ironic in my pants

14. Within Temptation - Enter in my pants (Or maybe not!)

15. Sophie Ellis Bextor - Groovejet in my pants

16. Type O Negative - Paint it black in my pants (yeah, pubic hair dye!)

17. Nonpoint - Alive and Kicking in my pants (Well when I plan on becoming a mother I should hope this would be the case!)

18. Buck Cherry - Jonny be Good in my pants (Yeah or Ben will cut off your...)

19. Phill Collins - In the air tonight in my pants (I hope there isn't any air up there, that can only lead to fanny farting and thats never good!)

20. Frank SInatra - Dancing Cheek to cheek in my pants (Bum!)

21. UB40 - Red red wine in my pants (Why is this thing obsessed with periods?)

22. Wanda Jackson - Fujiyama mama in my pants (Oooh hello!)

Anyway, training was good today. I'm on the Leonard Cheshire Disability charity raising funds for schools accessible to disabled kids in Africa. I feel all warm and mushy in my heart, and in my banka ccount too ^__^

Bex
xxx

Well shit hit the fan with one of the people I thought was a best friend this evening. It all started 2 weeks ago.

Basically, as most of you know, 2 weeks ago to the day me and Ben found out his sister Katie couldn't visit us for Birthday frolics here in Liverpool. This was a shame, as we'd planned a whole load of fun with friends, including Iris, who gets on really well with Katie. Iris called me to ask what the plan was and I had to break it to her that Katie couldn't make it, so she suggested that we should go to her instead, that she'd drive us all down and we'd have some fun. I made a phone call to Katie who said this weekend was best, but she had a hair dressers appointment on the Saturday so Sunday would be best, though we'd have to leave early anyway as she has a work party. So I report back to Iris and we're all excited.

Later that very same night, when everything is still all up in the air and not really properly sorted out, Katie texts to ask if she cancels her appointment on Saturday could we go then instead of Sunday, as we'd get to stay later and do more stuff together. I told Katie I'd have to ask Iris as I didn't know if she was working or had plans or what, so I text Iris to tell her Katie had decided she'd rather do it on the Saturday as we'd have more time, was this ok, and guess what, Iris said yeah, thats fine.

A couple of days later, it was Sunday, and Ben had his weekly phone call home, and his mum insisted that we should stay down in Kent over night, as it was a long way to drive. I didn't know if this was good with Iris, whether she had work or what, so once again I said wait till I've spoken to her about it. I did, and Iris said she'd assumed this was what was happening anyway. So all is fine.

The next weekend came along, and I was worried that we hadn't sorted out the timetable, as I personally am one of these people who likes to plan ahead, so Iris came over on Sunday night. Her and Ben had a silly little tiff about Microsoft vs Linux which she took very personally (basically, Iris went on an anti Microsoft rant saying how they have such a monopoly over the market, Ben argued this is obviously for a reason ie it is the best tool for the job, to which Iris started arguing Linux was, culminating in Ben pointing out after having used it himself he much prefered Microsoft, Iris saying well he obviously didn't use it to the full extent because if he had he'd obviously prefer Linux, Ben saying well I find that slightly patronising, and Iris taking that just a little too personally and nearly threatening to walk out) and the mood in the room was very tense after this. We got out the road atlas and started making a plan of the route, and she said ooh we should try to avoid the Dartford crossing, and Ben pointed out that his parents usually take that route as it's the quickest and most direct. But nothing bad was said we just got on with it and she left with us all happy families and raring to go on our little road trip.

Now, Iris had said she'd pop over tomorrow to talk about last minute arrangements, but I got my job offer from homefundraising, and have to go in for training tomorrow, and I didn't know if Iris would have to be getting ready for work by the time I got out so I called her last night to ask about what time we should set off. She said she didn't mind, so I asked Ben what he thought and he suggested 6am. I said this to Iris and she was like oh...ok...so I turned to Ben and said well thats a bit early, so he said well tell Iris whenever is good for her will be fine, so I relayed this to her and she said no no 6 is fine...but I wasn't convinced. It seemed uneasy when I said bye, so I said to Ben well maybe we could go a bit later and he said, ok, call her tomorrow and see what she says. So I did call her to say why don't we go at 8 instead. She says some shit has happened and she'll call me back.

This is when Shit hit the fan.

She calls me back and says she's so pissed off, absoloutley fuming, and I ask whats wrong. She says she's sick of me and Ben changing the goal posts. I ask what she means, and she rambles off the following list of bullshit:

a) Me and Ben keep changing plans. First it was Sunday we were going, then it was saturday evening, then it was saturday morning at 6 am now its saturday at 8am, and we're just taking the piss and taking advantage of her
b) Ben has been dictating the whole thing to her
c) She's sick of Bens attitude, and if we went down and they had an argument she'd probably leave and be forced to make me choose between going with her back home or staying in Kent with Ben and my future in laws.
d) Her friends car has been smashed and she has no transport for the weekend
e) She's getting evicted and has to move house in a couple of months.
f) As a result of all this she *doesn't know* whether or not she'll be taking us down, because right now she certainly doesn't want to.

My answer to her on the phone is as follows:

a) The change from Sunday to Saturday was not our asking, it was Katie, and I'm sorry to say that although Iris has been very kind in offering to drive us down we're going to someone elses home, I mean we have to be respective of their plans and their house. We can't just turn up, people have jobs, people have a social life, people have work to do outside of jobs (Bens parents are teachers and every time I've visited they've had to put time aside to do work, marking and the such) so I'm sorry, but if they ask us to come on such and such a date of course you must either oblige or decline the whole trip if you can't make it. As for the change from Saturday evening to Saturday morning, I don't know where the fuck she's come up with that. I never once said Saturday evening, as someone who has travelled up and down the country at least once if not twice a year every year of my life I'm pretty used to the routine being head off at about 9 in the morning. So I assumed. Sounds like she's being assuming too but she never once told me thats what she thought would be happening, and if she says thats something thats been changed on my account well its her own damned fault for not speaking up and letting me know this is what she assumed was happening. And as for the change from 6am to 8am, I thought I was doing her a favour, she sounded so pissed off at getting up for 6! I mean what really pissed me off was when she started going on about rush hour on a Saturday. Yeah because I've never fucking driven around on Saturday have I? I may not be a driver but I've spent many hours of my life bored shitless in the back of our people carrier in the middle of a saturday rush hour traffic jam, I'm not fucking stupid.

b) Ben hasn't had ANYTHING to say with regards to the journey. He made two suggestions about the whole journey. First, that we should indeed use the Dartford crossing as it would get us there quicker, and second that we should set off at 6am. Apparently, Iris got the idea from both of these suggestions that he was demanding this was what happened, and she can even back it up because when I called about what time we should set off he had it on speaker phone and her friend could hear him. BULL SHIT. He made a suggestion after I asked. As for the Dartford thing, apparently she was so angry that he should suggest we go that way after many years of experience of travelling North from Kent with his parents that she wanted to slap him. WTF? She was just going on and on about "well IM the driver, and I don't care how many years he's gone with his parents, he's never had to drive it has he so how would he know?" She then goes on a ramble on hiw she's driven to London loads of times and thus doesn't care for Ben "dictating" the journey. Well sorry, bitch, but Ben only started making suggestions on the part of the route that came after London, a stretch of road he knows very well so I think he has a right to make suggestions, and just because you've gone and taken a stupid argument about which operating system is the best personally doesn't give you any fucking right what so ever to take anything else out on him.

c) Well thanks for telling me that, yeah, that really makes me feel fucking great doesn't it. You'd happily make me choose between you, who I only started talking to really about this time last year, and my fiance, who was my best friend this time 2 years ago before we even started seeing each other. Yeah, right, sure you didn't mean that in a bad way, you just put that in to be a fucking cow cause you're all upset about something I don't even get.

d) As for Amy's car, well I'm very sorry about that and I can understand why you'd wanna help her out, but do you know what I do every damned day of my life since I don't have a car? I take the fucking bus! I'm now taking a train down to Bens parents since we haven't the luxury of your car. You'd made this commitment 2 weeks ago, and you're just gonna flake out on us? Yeah thanks, this stinks of what happened that time when we asked if you'd like to move into Wellington Avenue with us and you came over and looked around and on THE day we needed an answer, you said no because we hadn't given you enough time to think about it. Yeah, our fault, despite us telling you all the details a week before and telling you exactly when we needed an answer by and you making the suggestion that you move in with us, NOT the other way round! You just flake out on us because there's something you'd rather do over and over again and every time you make out like it's all our fault and you're the hurt party.

e) The eviction thing was said on Monday and you had all this week to decide you didn't want to go to Kent cause you wanted to stay and look for houses. Gee, thanks for letting us know 2 days before that you didn't want to come, so don't pull the "oh Im getting evicted" one on me because you know that I've known as long as you have, and that you could have said there and then look, with all this I'm under a lot of stress and don't think I can make it, and I would have understood.

f) Well it's great that you "don't know" whether or not you want to go after 2 weeks since you offered it to us in the first place. What are we supposed to tell Bens folks? We may or may not be there on Saturday? I had a thumping migraine and Ben wanted to stay home with me today, but he couldn't cause we were supposed to be going down to Kent and so he couldn't work the Saturday instead. See, we've made plans, Bens folks have made plans, and you just expect us to hang on and wait for you to talk to Amy to decide what's happening, 2 days before? Gee, thanks a bunch.

Anyway, she said she'd go and talk to Amy about it and see if she could sort something out, and I called up Ben and told him what was happening and what had been said. Needless to say he was as unimpressed as I was that he was getting blamed for upsetting her for "dictating" what she should do, and that we were getting accused of "taking advantage" when she had made the suggestion in the first place, and every time a decision had to be made we asked her first, she said it's up to you, and when we said well what about this she said that's fine, aside from decisions out of our hands, which as I said is not up to us, you can't just arrive at someones house and expect bed and board without it all being ok with everyone. So we both decided to tell her we didn't want to go down. First off, there was a real chance that even if she said yes we'll go she'd turn around on the day and say actually no. Second off, if she got in a huff with us on the way down she could easily kick us out in the middle of no where, and she seems to have been getting in so many huffs with us lately that this was a real possibilty, and frankly if she did leave us in Kent well that's great, Bens folks who had been told hey we're making our way down on our own steam suddenly get landed with a train bill or a long impromptu trip up to Liverpool to bring us back home. Finally, after all this, we're not exactly happy with what Iris is accusing us of, and don't particularly want to spend 10 hours there and back with her in the car. Doesn't mean we're not buddies, but this would just be too tense and uneasy.

So I text her to let her know. The following is the text conversation we had;

( The torrent of unwarranted abuse I recieved from one Iris Todorovic )

Suffice to say she hasn't text back and I doubt she will. I also doubt that we'll ever speak again being that she's a stubborn bitch and when she's right she's right and everyone else is wrong, it's all black and white, no grey area for her, and thus she probably will never appologise for hurling such abuse at me, for calling me and inconsiderate bitch, for calling me and Ben twats, for telling me to fuck off, for implying that she'd make me choose between her and Ben (wouldn't be a hard choice even without this argument to be honest) and I sure as hell am not crawling back to her to appologise after she called me accusing me and Ben of taking advantage.

As a result of this me and Ben are indeed taking the train to Kent, as we have a little sisters birthday to celebrate and 2 parents who'd made time in their schedules to fit us in, unlike Iris we don't screw people over at the very last minute unless it's absoloutley unavoidable.

Now I'm going to eat Fray Bentos pie and chips.

Fuck you, Iris, and fuck your car too!

Bex
xxx

Today, Ben and I went to see a house in Toxteth. It was very small, it seemed larger in the description, but I guess these people are all out to make a profit and will sell up anything! Never the less, it was cozy, and despite the bare cream walls and carpet and empty, souless feeling of the whole place, I think once it's got some furniture in, the heating on, some pictures on the walls and books in shelves and ornaments on the mantle piece it will be quite a little nest for myself and Ben. I'm already imagining this time next year, snuggled up on a sofa infront of the TV, Xmas tree in the window, hot chocolate in hand and the electric fire on keeping us nice and cozy. One thing that I do find a little odd/uncomfortable about the place is that downstairs is all one room. It's nice in some ways, it means the living area is quite roomy, doesn't feel boxed in like walled off seperate living rooms in other houses of a similar size, and it's definitley a bonus on getting social time in, no one seperated etc. However, I've never ever lived in a house that didn't have a hallway or lobby, and there's just a mental block in my head that feels that theres only a little bit of plastic between me and the outside world, and whilst I know that in reality it's no less secure than Wellington avenue, that mental block is thinking wha that seems wierd and dangerous. Oh I dont know, it just feels that way to me!

Anyhow, we did decide we liked it overall, as it's in good condition and is quite charming really, so we rushed to the office to find out what to do to get the place, as another young couple came in to view the place just as we were leaving, and got landed with a load of paperwork and potential stoppers on getting the place. As we're both liable, we have to provide 3 references each, including a bank reference. The bank reference is a bastard. It asks if, as an individual, we could afford the rent. Obviously, individually, we can't, but together it's actually not a problem. But we'll figure out what to do about that once the references are given. Another block is that we each have to provide a guarantor. This wouldn't be so much of a problem except that whilst we're going to see Bens folks this weekend, I won't see mine till 20th and wont be back in Liverpool for 2 weeks after. The place could be gone by then, and besides, we wanted to move in then. One more bollocky problem...for the privilege of rushing arround getting all these references, we have to pay £75 admin fees and stamp duty. HAH!

Anyway all these niggling things got me feeling a bit helpless. I wondered if it was actually worth moving out now and not waiting till the end of our contract, but then it's all done now. I guess even if we can't move out straight away as we had hoped and pay Kushan half rent for January until we can get all this sorted out, well, it'll be a good thing. I've really got my heart set on moving to a nice little place now. And besides, how would our situation change in any big way between now and January?

So I decided to ask for an interview with Home Fund Raising. To be honest, I doubt I'll enjoy it all that much (though you never know, I may be pleasently suprised) but it gets pennies rolling in until I find a job I could forge a life out with. It lets me say to the letting agents that yes, I am indeed in full time employment, it gives me a regular income to the bank, and I can start paying off some of that student debt to boot. I know I was going to wait till after Xmas, but it just seems that even if I work for 2 weeks, thats one months rent sorted and in my bank account ready for when I come back!

So anyway, the interview was...well...not much of an interview. She asked what I knew about the company, told me a load of stuff I already know about the company, then said I had the job and should come back on Friday for training, Monday for more training, and of course, straight into work.

It will indeed be good. I feel my treatment with the doctors is starting to kick in, and generally whilst I used to wake up and think "Oh God what's the point I just wanna bum around" I've been waking up, after having decent amounts of uninterrupted sleep (hehehe, that's a new one, me sleep?) and thinking "God I wish I had somewhere to go". So now I do have somewhere to go, and a means of getting money in for the house, and something to put down to the letting agents so they're more likely to give us said house.

Everyones a winner!

Bex
xxx

To be completed by those OUT of high school =)

Tired of all of those surveys made up by high school kids?
'Have you ever kissed/missed someone?'
'Ever snuck out of the house?'
'Told someone you loved them?'
'Ever sat on a roof?'
'Drank alcohol?'...

50 questions for the people who are a little older....

1. What bill do you hate paying the most?
Credit Card. Everything else seems to serve a purpose, while the credit card just adds money to the banks coffers. I wish I'd never got the bloody thing!

2. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?
Lloyds bar in town lol, before going to the cinema

3. Do you regret losing your virginity to who you lost it to?
Gah, I don't regret loosing my "girlie" virginity to Chelsea she was pretty cool and it was fun and all, but oh God do I regret loosing my "proper" virginity to Jason...what the fuck was I thinking?

4. If you could go back and change one thing what would it be?
I probably would have never gone with Merlin. Either that or I would have kept Bryce at a safe distance from my personal life!

5. Name of your first grade teacher?
Mrs Pratt hehehehe, y'all would like to think I'm joking wouldn't you! She's dead now, but mum always said she lived up to her name...

6. What do you really want to be doing right now?
Id like to be working but everyone around me tells me to wait till January. I'm going home in 19 days so they probably have a point

7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?
An Egyptologist lol

8. How many colleges did you attend?
One sixth form college

9. Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now?
Because it was clean lol

10. What are your thoughts on gas prices?
They're starting to get a bit ridiculous. Whether we like it or not peoples livelihoods depend on being able to travel, public transport just isn't good enough to cope with all the drivers on the road anyway. I think if they're gonna hike up petrol prices so much, they need to put the taxes earned into schemes to get renewable biofuels widespread.

11. If you could move anywhere and take someone with you where would it be?
I'd move to somewhere in the English countryside surrounded by beautiful hills with my Benjikins

I2. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?
"Fuck it, I'm sleeping in"

13. Last thought before going to sleep last night?
"My vagina feels like its on fire...God damn that was good rough sex..."

14. Favorite underwear?
Anything that doesn't slide down my bum and doesn't dig in is good enough for me!

16. What errand/chore do you despise?
Cleaning the toilet.

17. If you didn't have to work, would you volunteer?
Am I volunteering now? If I found something that i felt I was really using my skills for or something then yeah, but just in a charity shop isn't good enough for me to be honest.

18. Get up early or sleep in?
sleep in

19. What is your favorite cartoon character?
Princess Fiona

20. Favorite thing to do at night with a girl/guy?
Curl up on his chest and talk before sleep time

21. Have you found real love yet?
Yes

22. When did you first start feeling old?
I don't feel old yet to be honest, as much as I joke about it. I know there is a new generation out there already who don't remember the cool things I grew up with, but Im not old.

24. Your favorite lunch meat?
Ham

25. What do you get every time you go into Costco?
Uuuuh?

26. Beach or lake?
Beach

27. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual?
No, I think it's just as relevent today as it ever was. It is a ritual, yes, and it's one which people obviously still want to take part in to affirm their partnership in life with another person. If you want the legal perks of marriage without the wedding ritual, you can still do that too. Some people feel they need neither to publicly announce it in a wedding or gain that legal status, and that's fine too. Doesn't mean its outdated though.

28. Do you own property?
No, I'm too poor lol

29. Favorite Guilty pleasure?
My vibrator.

30. Favorite movie you wouldn't want anyone to find out about?
Wouldn't that be telling?

31. What's your drink?
Malibu or Tia Maria with Coke

32. Cowboys or Indians?
Indians

33. Cops or Robbers?
Cops

34. Who from high school would you like to run in to?
Anyone of my best mates would be great to run into

35. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now?
I has no car *le sigh*

36. Norm or Cliff?
erm.... neither

37. 'The Cosby Show' or 'The Simpsons?
Simpsons!

38. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back?
Agreeing to go with Merlin!

39. Do you like the person that sits directly across from you at work?
I have no work

40. What famous person would you like to have dinner with?
Samoa Joe

41. Indoors or Outdoors?
Indoors

42. Have you ever crashed your vehicle?
Dont have a vehicle

43. Have you ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?
No, I left that to Ben and his dad ^_^;;

44. Last book you read?
Abhorsen

45. Do you have a teddy bear?
Many

46. Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth?
In a field whilst camping?

47. Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go?
San Fransisco

48. Do you go to church?
Yes

49. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship?
Career, my relationship is just peachy atm

50. How old are you?
20

Morning call.

Never really Seem
To tell you
Just how you
Make me feel
Every morning when
You glance at
Me from your
Pillow. So now
That I am
I'll settle for
Three little words.
I love you.

I love you too darling ^_^

The photo meme. Stole it from Laila, but I believe Jenny did it not so long ago too...

( photo meme! )

God damn it's cold in Bens Attic! Well a quick update. I'm officially no longer a student, and I feel quite liberated. There's a few jobs and the such I have my beady eye on, things that I could do and would include training and the such, things that could be the beginning of a nice cushty career and I'm feeling a little itchy to get moving, especially considering how tight December is going to be now, but I'm taking the advice of Ben and my parents and that is that there's not much point getting it now, when Xmas is around the corner and I'm jetting off in 28 days time. I mean, it wouldn't be fair on any employer. Failing getting one of these jobs after the Xmas holidays I have no problem going in for another job that pays the bills, but I'm just beginning to paint a picture of my life and how it could be and I just hope there are jobs like this when I get back!

Anyway, I'm bored, and the job searching isn't really worth much right now so I'm gonna do a load of quizzes and then play The Sims.

( quizzes )

Bex

I know I know it's only the 18th of November. But I did some xmas shopping for the kids yesterday and wrapped them all up and now I feel all googly and mushy about xmas coming up.

*le sigh*

Bex
xxx